Paradasiacal Glory: Putting myself out there

OK people this is what I did the night of Women's Conference :) Actually I was painting at a non member friends house and we had Conference playing on the internet which was a good thing :) I did enjoy conference and I loved Natalie's thoughts on it. It was a very powerful go mom kind of night and had some awesome spirit strengthening moments. :) I am wondering about HONEST thoughts on the painting if you want to give them this is not my rendition of Sherry's pictures don't worry I'm not quite that strange :) Honestly, from me, this is not the kind of art that I would normally consider great art but at the moment I feel more attached to this than I think I would to something that I had done in an exact image because then it can be more if they like what I painted ( I suppose it could be something great and I just hacked it, :) but let's assume I'd be decent for the sake of argument... though I haven't yet tried that... at this point the painting of Alex and I will be he first... ooh) and this painting it is very symbolic and very much from my heart, so I'm a little attached. So I really do want some opinions and if it's bad I might cry a little but I'll take it get up and try again so let me have it :)
I am feeling a need to share it's story Livvy believes that they are statues of a woman and (because he is so tall) God which I could see, and the woman with hands on here hip is saying "well why are you here?" Hillary "Why would you say that to God if he were next to you?" Livvy "I don't know, that's just what it looks like." Hillary "ummmm, OK" :) I can see that too, hehe. For my story on it though It's called Paradasiacal Glory ( Paradasiacal defined as in a paradise like state): The painting most basically is a couple very different but loving eachother very much and through the differences that they have there love and unity brings them to this paradise like state in their lives with eachother. So that for me makes it a painting of what I hope to someday be all the time. I think I've been there sometimes and I love it and want to be there all the time. The woman in the painting is rather dark and mysterious and very feminine. The lei she is wearing my mother wore in the picture that was my inspiration to me it represents and enhances all the beauty and femininity that she has. The faling flowers are the grace and beauty she leaves wherever she goes. The man towers over the woman, not in domination but in protection, if you notice he is leaning towards her and that is another part of the representation of protection as well as his wanting to just be close to her. One of the reasons I chose to paint him in white is to show the white knight effect, he is the perfect hero. (by the way Alex thought this was the woman because "that one is wearing a dress" That is just the way I blended out... maybe I'll work on that :) ) If you notice the green connecting the man and woman that is representing a peace that comes when they are together that helps to unite them making them as one. The eyes you see in the background (they are sideways) were originally the only part of the painting I started them on a night when I had to get out of the house and it was a very frustrating angry mom kind of night, but as I painted and I let go of those feelings the painting changed and I the whole painting wasn't supposed to be like that anymore (that's the point where I stopped and looked at it for a couple weeks before it became this.) So when I started the eyes I saw were angry and frustrated and where as one of them is red it is not angry to me, it is passionate and strongly emotional and the other peaceful and calm... again emphasizing the differences between the two people. Shoot, even the red and yellow blossoms in the background can show the contrast of emotions... but really I just liked the colors :)
If you want to know my inspiration picture I used for the man and woman was one of mom and dad in Hawaii. The feelings I expressed are as much my hope as what I see in you two as a couple. So, haha, let's see you write that you hate it now mom! Hahahaha I don't know how "correct" any of it is but I like it and really I guess that's all that matters.

Where are you going

Where are you going, my little one, little one,
Where are you going, my baby, my own?
Turn around and you're two,
turn around and you're four,
Turn around, you're a young girl going out of my door.
Turn around, turn around,
Turn around, you're a young girl going out of my door.
Where are you going, my little one, little one?
Dirndls and petticoats, where have you gone?
Turn around and you're tiny,
turn around and you're grown,
Turn around, you're a young wife
with babes of your own.
Turn around, turn around,
Turn around, you're a young wife
with babes of your own.

---MALVINA REYNOLDS, HARRY BELAFONTE, ALAN GREENE



Yeah, so Ally headed off to her first night of achievemnet days tonight. And I just this afternoon finished scrapbooking her 1st birthday. What happened?! This was taking so long!!!! And last I checked it still seemed like forever before I'll be through it all. But my baby girl stands almost tall as my shoulders and my other baby is wandering around in diapers like she was just yesterday.... OK I know we've heard it all before but, geeze it wasn't going to happen to me. I knew exactly what was going on and I'm not going to miss a moment (that would be miss as in be there for it and miss as in I'm not dissapointed it's gone :) ) But here I sit thinking about the way she looks all tall and smart and beautiful and getting more so by the day, And wondering if I did miss something or all of it in my craziness. It's alright Liv's calling me to watch her climb a tree and see herr leaf collection amd tell me about the boys and girls at school. (And even though Livvy thinks kissing is gross and doesn't "love" any boys she talks more about boys now than Ally does now... scary :) ) So I suppose there will be far greater worries to come so "no stress, no stress!" ....I'll just keep tellin' myself that :)

Ally's 2nd white dress :)

So Ally was baptised last weekend and Lot's of Family got to come it really was wonderful :) We missed everyone who was not there and my apologies to those who I did not let know about this in advance it's all very new to me and snuck up on me all to quickly... as has everything lately. This one is a great shot of all those who were able to attend again thank you so much it means so much to us that you were so willing to go out of your way to be here for this special event. :) Here's a couple great shots of our sweet little 8 year old :) And here are my favorites of her with her Mom or Dad... Thank you mom (Grandma Jenny) for remembering these shots and getting them on camera so well :) Then we have the cake and some fun shots with cousins! I have to go we also went hiking in the canyon and have some great shots of that but it's already 11:00 and I still have to get Livvy and clean and decorate... Atleast I'm done making cake:) for now :) I have to say these are the things that happened that day but even looking back on it, It's all a little sureal. I can't believe that my little girl is that big... I know lot's of you have been there but being there myself is so strange. I sat there at the baptism next to my beautiful daughter all dressed in her beautiful white dress next to her daddy all in his white clothes we prepared everything and talked about this and talked about lots of other things but I can still hardly believe it is my little girl going into those waters of baptism. She is so sweet and so wonderful and so innocent and pure. I love her so dearly and I carry a prayer with me always that I will have the ability to teach her what she needs to know so that someday she will grow to be worthy of wearing that 3rd white dress and that I will be there to see it. My other prayer as I look at this beautiful girl is that her road will be only bumpy enough for her to learn to be able to follow the smoothest parts of that road.

Not the Baptism yet

Ok so the baptism files are still saving so we are going to post some fabulous pics of Allyson decorating her Birthday cake from September the 18th. I helped... just a little :)

I'm sorry.... So Sorry!

So there's lots to blog about I've just been in stress out mode and I think my brain has begun to shut down which is not good because tonight is Ally's birthday with all her school friends and 11 days from now is Phoebe's 1st Birthday (it doesn't help that all the other mother's with babies turning 1 right now are asking what we're doing for her party:])and 10 days after that will be Livvy's birthday/party. And then there's a couple dental and doctor visit's thrown in here and there for good measure. And I'm not feeling the greatest... I guess that's to bad for me cause it's gonna be like this every year. What was I thinking? (said in that whiny voice we all know) So back up and here are some baptism pictures will you all quit griping know Geez! :)

I'm trying to paint

Well all I still don't know which picture I'm going to get printed (probably several:) ) but I do know I love this picture and I'm going to paint it! Crazy huh! I'll try to take a picture of it when I'm done but who knows when I'll even get a chance to start it:) I'll probably paint it in all creams and tans and such... I think. Again we'll have to see what happens :) but here goes:)
Oh by the way this is a sketch that will be projected onto the canvas so that I can just trace it out and then I'll try to paint in what I want :) It's not really cheating. As my artist friend says's it's whatever gets the job done :)

Breaking in Dad :)

So Last night Alex got home and I finished making everyone dinner and about 6:30 I went to work and about 8:00 Alex (knowing that my schedule is somewhat flexible) called me and frantically started begging me to come home soon that NOW would be a good time... (hehehe) apparently Layna had started throwing up and at the same time Phoebe... well let's just say she needed a diaper change... Badly! (HAHAHA) well by the time I got home(after finishing up and hurrying out) about 8:30 Layna was still in the tub, the kitchen smelled like bleach, and Phoebe was naked.. she got a bath too as while cleaning up Layna Alex asked Ally and Livvy to watch her and that didn't work out so good.... she crawled through Layna's mess (nasty), and so while I felt bad for Alex he handled things pretty well and I helped everyone into bed helped finish the clean up and got a good laugh in my head to see Alex so exhausted. He did great :) Aside from the momentary panic... but who hasn't done that :)