Gosh, Natalie can really make you stop and think :)

So I totally missed Nat's post until now, and Geez when you don't think about how good we had it and you're just learning about how hard it must have been to do all that for all of us, you kinda forget that it's my job now to provide that for all these little guys. It's strange to think of all the things we did as children and to realize how old my kids are getting and how short a time we have them. I suppose that really is our job to give them those memories and fill their time with us, with joy. How scary it can be wondering if they will love us and eachother, when this is all said and done, the way we love our parents and siblings. Is it possible? Because our love is so great and so many things are different than they were. Each circumstance changes and then tomorrow it changes again. It's hard not to be selfish with my time, my love, and my life, after all it's mine! But if I do not share my time with them it's not "Who will?", but that someone else will and, then, they will then not want my love, and my life will truly be my own because they will not want it either. I can hear mom whispering in my ear that this is my job and these are my life and my loves. I can hear mom telling me don't sweat the small stuff, it's only a blanket after all. Although at the moment it may be that it's only dinner, or my clean floor, or the 8 cups of sugar I just finished measuring. :) I do love them and I hope they remember that when they are grown, because for me, at this point, as I read Nat's post the places were wonderful and nothing could replace those, but what I remember right now was Mom & Dad loving us enough to take afternoon's, days, and weeks of "there life's" and giving that to us, and loving us all the more for it. If only I could be like that. :) (smile through the tears... after all if you don't laugh you'll cry:) ) I'll keep trying.